This poem was just published at Horror Sleaze Trash. It’s also in my under-read, underappreciated erstwhile collection Hallucinogenic Dragonfly Intermezzo, available here.
It’s All Academic
Become a teacher.
Get a mortgage on a house in the suburbs.
Buy a car with good gas mileage.
Get involved in the local poetry readings.
Start a zine and publish only those who publish you.
Use superlatives
like ‘excellent’ or ‘brilliant’ when describing the lousy work of your friends.
(Flattery is your friend too).
Read William Carlos Williams.
Become obsessed with his Red Wheelbarrow theory.
Cultivate a garden in your backyard.
Plant it with lima beans, bell peppers, radishes.
Watch everything die.
Give up on it.
Read more William Carlos Williams.
Be sober.
Get tenure.
Never miss a meal.
Ignore your betters.
Go bald.
Get back to nature.
Begin by mowing your own lawn.
Write some poesy about it (in the Charles Simic style – trade
Williams
in for him).
Become obsessed with chinch bugs and molecrickets
and the growth of grass and various types of weed killers.
Crash into a stump with your lawnmower.
Do a flip over the handlebars.
Get whiplash.
Wear a neckbrace for some months.
A fat and cumbersome one.
One that presses down into your collarbones and pushes up
into your jowls so your jowls
drape themselves over the edges of it
giving you the appearance of a Basset Hound with its flabby
mug sitting on a linoleum floor.
Believe that your students are noting your wit
when they’re really drawing cartoons of you.
Sell your lawn equipment.
Hire cheap Guatemalan labor and pay off your house
and pay off your car
and be even more sober
and buy a Hog
and leathers and a plasma TV.
And come home early from a faculty meeting one day
and witness
the meter reader
or the software salesman
or the bug exterminator
working away
on your wife.
You start shouting
and they start shouting and you ball
up your fists and the veins stand up in your forehead
and your whole bald head turns red and then
a deep shade of monkey-vomit purple comes down over your face
and he climbs off her
apologizes snatches up his clothes and balls
them up and placing them carefully over his nether regions
slinks half-nude along the wall and out the front door
and you go into your study
and you bawl God out
and reach for a glass of water.
Then reach for Simic.
When he fails
reach for Galway
Kinnell and Kinnell failing
lick your wounds
and check your pride
and forgive your wife
Because you can’t really blame her.
You turned her into your mother the day you got married
and besides, a poet needs a little pain in his life.
It gives him something to write about.
But don’t write about that.
Keep writing your surrealism, or whatever you call it.
Follow the herd.